On top of all that love flowing through my body, the wedding is around the corner with just over a week to go. My heart leaps at the thought of walking down our beach aisle to marry this wondrous man. I can hardly believe it is happening, my fairytale coming true! Finding someone that understands me, loves me, makes me laugh endlessly, is sweet, attentive, naughty and cheeky, all rolled into a sexy package of barefeet, white shirt and blue jeans.
That is not to say that I haven't been with my fair share of frogs. In my search for the right person I have been with men and boys - in fact mostly boys! who have been on either side of the personality spectrum. Sweet and attentive which becomes pliable and predictable. Dangerous and mysterious which turns out to be just plain deceitful and completely dishonest. Safe and normal which becomes insufferably dull and boring. You begin to think... I should just settle for this version of my dream - its not that bad, I can live with this. I thank the heavens for my stubbornness. I didn't give up. I kept believing that there would be better, that my life could be filled with joy and not intermittent contentedness.
I feel so proud to have 2 people in my life that I would fight to the death for. I feel proud that I have created a family, almost without knowing it. I love them, our love our unit and the people we have surrounded ourselves with, our extended family. I am entirely blessed to know such wonderous people that have infused everyday with love, light, understanding, trust and honesty. It is my greatest achievement yet and if it continues to be my greatest achievement until I am old and wrinkly then I will have achieved the greatest thing one can on this earth - to leave a legacy of love and light behind.
